Long Live Your Majesty, Except for me - Chapter 186

#186. Side Story 10. Happiness in Hand (中)
2024.02.02.

　
“… … “It’s not easy for me to get the word out.”

It took a moment for Langrisha to understand what I was saying.

“Do you think he might have changed his mind?”

I couldn’t look Lang Grisha in the eyes as he asked her incredulously.

“If that were the case, wouldn’t he have traveled that far to see your face?”

Because Langrisha was right. It was last month that Melchizedek came to see me. Generally speaking, it is evidence of unchanging, passionate affection.

The only problem is that he and I both have past lives.

“… … “I don’t know if I can do it.”

Of course, in my previous life, I was married. And my spouse seems to be satisfied with the marriage.

However, the marriage was closer to a union of necessity.

Even though my spouse knew from the beginning that there would be no love in this marriage, she accepted my proposal and I stayed true to my initial promise.

That’s why our married life was able to proceed successfully.

So, I am confident that I can successfully survive a loveless marriage.

However, conversely, I am not confident in a married life based on love. Because it’s something I’ve never done before.

“I’m not doubting your change of mind. Rather, I’m worried that since my mind remains the same, I might let it be known that my thoughts have changed.”

Now, I don’t do anything to doubt his feelings.

Anyway, if he dies and is reborn and still loves me even after going through all that trouble, he will probably love me forever.

But that doesn’t mean it wasn’t because it was a past life.

As time passed, what if you realized that those times were better?

Melchi Zedek is a much more rational person than she appears on the outside. Even emotions are used as a means of negotiation, so people don’t know much about it.

As he is, he may have been thinking calmly over the past few years.

What if the result was that another relationship was better than the marital relationship?

However, if he is not saying anything because he thinks he might be misunderstood if he asks to break off the engagement.

“If you think so, it would be better to ask directly.”

Lang Grisha advised, shrugging her shoulders.

“There is no guarantee that the answer to that is true.”

“well? If I tell a lie, won’t you be able to tell? If you get married with those doubts in mind, you will continue to have doubts in the future. Are you forcing yourself to endure it? In that case, I think it would be better to ask and either proceed with the marriage or break off the engagement.”

If you’re not going to do it, it’s better to break off the engagement now and then find a new partner.

Indeed, today’s Langrisha said nothing but the right things. I sighed at the crossroads of choice that came before me.

okay. Now I have to make a choice.

Will it really change our relationship, or will it remain public and not as private as before?

***

And the time to make that choice came sooner than expected.

I was originally going to ask when I visited the LeTile Empire. Have you changed your mind?

If that were the case, I wouldn’t have any strange misunderstandings, so why not call off the engagement and go my own way.

There is some time until then, so prepare your mind.

“Blanchet.”

However, that promise was broken less than a month after Langrisha’s conversation. It was because Melchizedek came to visit me.

“Was there any problem?”

Less than two months have passed since his previous visit.

Considering the round trip time, it was almost as if I had just returned to the empire.

If it’s something that the Emperor himself would move without sending an envoy, it must be a very serious problem.

Had he already made up his mind? So he just felt like he had to say something?

While many complicated thoughts were running through my head, he grabbed my arm.

His hands were a little hot and stiff as if he were nervous.

“For just 30 minutes from now, will you be very honest with me?”

“I didn’t lie to you often.”

Well, it’s hard to say that I didn’t do it very much. Still, I only kept quiet or ignored misunderstandings, and there were very few times when I directly told a lie.

But he answered with a smile on his face.

“know. Even though you know that, you still insist on asking. tell me the truth If not, be prepared to carry out that lie for the rest of your life.”

Now my body is starting to stiffen with tension. What kind of words will come out of his mouth?

He took a deep breath and said:

“Tell me you don’t regret it.”

I smiled weakly.

“I don’t regret it.”

To be exact, it’s closer to choosing not to regret it.

“Promise me that you won’t regret it in the future.”

“I won’t regret it.”

Finally, the hand holding my arm lost some of its strength. He asked in a whisper, with his deep blue eyes looking directly at me.

“You won’t regret it even if you marry me.”

It was more of a request than a question.

I answered that question with a question.

“How about you say that?”

He can give me political benefits through marriage.

I am simply marrying in a different direction from my previous life, with the same emotional direction.

But what about him?

“You have had as your companion both the world’s most beautiful woman and the most wise and good wife.”

Will I be able to meet the ideal spouse he wants?

“Am I really enough?”

In his previous life, his Majesty had numerous queens as an emperor. Everyone was helpful to him in different ways.

So, isn’t the married life he thinks of ultimately a combination of all the strengths of those two people? The question is whether I can truly meet that ideal.

I have never had anything but transactional marriages.

He chuckled and lowered his head once. My body was shaking from laughter, and my arms that were being held by him were shaking as well.

“If I say this now, will I become trash?”

When he looked up again, a look of helpless relief appeared on his face.

“But really, in my entire life, I have never wanted anyone else but you.”

It was certainly a statement that others might say was excessive.

Unlike my husband and I, who had absolutely no feelings for each other, I remember that among His Majesty’s concubines, there were people who truly loved him.

“So there’s nothing else to do but enough. “I will be perfectly happy just for you to be you.”

But in the end, what came to me was relief. No matter what happened to my previous marriage or what your marriage was like, this is ultimately our first marriage of love.

That’s the same thing.

“It is you.”

The hand that was holding his forearm came up and cupped my cheek.

“I dreamed of a life with you my whole life. But not you. You, you dismissed my marriage proposal as something that never happened. … … Are you still okay? Do you mind being with me in this life? Just like back then, don’t you think that a relationship other than a couple is better?”

I held his hand on my cheek.

“Melchizedek.”

“huh.”

“The reason I didn’t accept your marriage proposal back then was because I could have been with you that way.”

Even though we were not married, His Majesty and I were very closely connected politically at that time. To the extent that it could never be separated unless it was forcibly removed in such a violent manner in the later years.

“But after all, the next emperor of the Letile Empire and the Prime Minister of the Kingdom of Lamore cannot be together unless they are married.”

There was a time when I tried to cut him out of my life. Because he thought he could cut me off.

I thought that if I was going to spend the rest of my life worrying about when he would leave my life, it would be better to not have him from the beginning.

But as I thought about that and was about to leave, he caught me again. I need him too, and I won’t make a mistake twice.

then. If he doesn’t abandon me and isn’t unhappy with this marriage.

Then this marriage is the best outcome I could hope for.

“Any means is fine as long as I can be with you.”

If he doesn’t want to, it’s a different story… … . Didn’t he just say that he really wanted this marriage?

In that case, it would have been better for the form of the vow to be marriage.

Unlike the oath of allegiance, it is not one-sided, but rather an oath exchanged between two parties.

“Blanchet Roa Vandalouin.”

“yes.”

He lowered the hand that was not being held and traced his arms. I could anticipate the actions that followed.

As expected, what was pulled out by his hand was a small box.

He deftly opened the box with one hand and held it out to me.

“Melkisedek Georges Pendleton, Emperor of the LeTile Empire, asks you to marry him. “Please accept it.”

“I’m willing.”

I held out my left hand to him and smiled brightly.